How I took my life back

I had to set aside my pride and acknowledge the fact that what I was going through was out of my control, I needed help from someone who was able to understand my problems and help me identify why I was feeling the way I was feeling.

I was very honest with my provider and asked for help

I set my own realistic goals for my rehabilitation

I was open and honest with myself, I also worked with my therapist not against my therapist. IE, I would not argue with the therapist or set up the therapist to fail.

I had to allow the therapist to challenge my thoughts and feelings without anger or resentment.

I took ownership of my behavior and actions I followed my therapist’s recommendations and ideas for rehabilitation and carried them out as suggested.

To add to my therapy, all of my college electives were centered on my own questions about the world; if I were able to write a paper about my experiences in the military I would. This process helped me with my progress a great deal, I was able to get out my emotions on paper and I learned a great deal about my thought process at the time, which was obsessively centered on my experiences in the military.

At one point I had to take a break from therapy, my mind was too overwhelmed with school, therapy and life in general. During this time I began to regress and found myself in a very vulnerable and emotional state. I returned back to the VA’s program and began Prolonged Exposure Therapy. During this time I had to become completely transparent and even more venerable than before. Although this type of therapy was the most intense, it was the most important and helpful to my recovery.

Once I completed the program I didn’t stop, I still enrolled in classes that pertained to my questions regarding the world and self-improvement.

I never stopped working on my progress, it’s my mission in life to better myself and my quality of life for my family. If I began to slip or regress, I made an effort to use the tools and grounding techniques that I learned in the program. If I were unable to deal with an issue, I made an appointment with my therapist who was aware of my progress at all times.

Once I felt healthy and I was able to work on relationships, I worked as hard as I could to repair the damage that I personally caused with friends and family, which is still an ongoing process.